I've survived and I am not stronger for it.

I am not proud to wear the scars, 

they are a reminder of the pain I've endured. 

Although my body has healed,

my mind still bleeds like they are fresh.

People around me have become so tired of the same story 

and I don't even tell it anymore.

I wish they understood that I'm tired too. 

tired of pretending that I'm okay,and that "time heals all wounds". (it doesn't)

The trauma literally changed my brain. 

overstimulated amygdala, 

underactive hippocampus, 

weak prefrontal cortex.

I've survived and I am not stronger for it.

Amygdala = the part of the brain that’s most closely associated with fear, emotion and motivation.

Hippocampus = a part of you brain that’s responsible for your memory and learning.

Prefrontal cortex = personal center